First Rejection

Posted by amandarebecca89 on March 25, 2019

It’s been too long since I wrote my last blog post. I will try and keep this as quick as possible because I don’t know if people actually read when I ramble on.

Last week we were moving and I was waiting to hear if I had gotten a job at a company I really liked. Sadly, I did not get the job. I cried for a few hours and then realized that it wasn’t the right role for me and the team was not what I had envisioned.

Rejection sucks no matter in what form. This was my first live coding interview and really, my first three step interview process after graduating in February. I knew I hadn’t gotten the job during the interview, something in my gut told me but I held out hope regardless.

I see people from my bootcamp graduating and getting jobs and I’m still jobless. It’s hard not to compare yourself to others especially when you suffer from anxiety and mild depression. Also, from the live coding session in that interview I wonder if I will ever actually land a job - P.S. I know I will but my anxiety gets the best of me.

What I can say is that I have the most supportive people in my corner including my parents, my partner, close friends and my twitter family. You keep me going. Thank you for always encouraging me and telling me not to give up because on days like this I want to, I won’t lie. I won’t though - in a few months or less I’ll find the right role and company. For anyone else that is struggling like myself, don’t give up. Give yourself the day like I am, go to bed and wake up with motivation. We can do this.

That’s all for now and thank you for reading.